Thursday, December 31, 2009

How do I welcome 2010?????????????

Whole world is awaiting for the new year with new hopes n dreams......with crackers and fancy lights around the streets....n with stars being a late fantasy for a week....is it a happy day today..yea definitely...for me today is my ammas bday....as we celebrate the new year eve together with her bday blast.....

im one more year ahead with experience.....but one year short to death....nd is evident in all our new year n bday celebrations.....even though it is a fact we try to ignore it as we human beings try hard to find an occasion to be themselves happy....

getting new year cards was most exciting thing couple of years back n i too had spend a huge amount buying cards...but now no one sends a card(post man will be the happiest man for this change...) the only cards we get these days is from the business entities as part of their strategies to maintain their customer relationship...n its dumped not even bothered to open it up if the post cover has their logo....but the tech savvy minds sends forwards n e cards with new ideas n innovative captions which we feel excited sometimes..even that too has changed to just a forwarded mail....this is our new year celebration....the youth in metros go for discos. In our Gods own country..the so called hi-fi's do make it out...some of them do have a family get together or else go out for a dine........rest of the community sits in front of TV with virtual celebrations..not even dared to wish the one sitting next to us.....

As any other day January 1st comes and goes some of them do have a holiday others will be there at work...and the days pass...for that we celebrate?? NO its only bcoz people are grabbing each opportunity to be themselves happy n to be social in between their busy schedules.....

no one gets time to look even the pre set reminders in their latest gadgets,so do they cant wish their dear ones n friends for their bdays or anniversaries..so this common day helps us to be social which will not be compromised with a sake of some forwarded mails or msgs sent it to the group....

This is for the New year Eve..........Yet again a business strategy minding the relationships in this marathon running life.........do we mind the one who r suffering for a drop or water or a shelter....No they are still suffering with their so called hopes for the new year, may be waiting for their horoscopical change soon not in the new year anytime this year.....or for a new thought for them from the government or from the judiciary.............

With a week long(hardly tries) tuff new year resolutions, fwd-ed messages in my inbox to be fwd-ed to more n with technically updated mails me too is waiting for a wonderful year 2010........ for a new year eve...

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

2 states To 2 countries within 2 individuals....

yesterday was really a boring day....Harthal has been declared...working at home i was not pretty much satisfied as its the only rare occasion at home we get mom n dad together with no much hectic schedules other than phone calls for dad....i was like amidst of work reading and many more things in chart also wanted to test some of my culinary skills....but nothing happened as i was assigned some important work which i need to complete the day itself and i wanted to complete '2 states' by chetan bagat which i started the last day ....

i was much interested in the beginning reading the book as the couple struggles to make their love end up in marriage with both the parents side smiling..the Punjabi's n Tamils get together for their children s wish.... IIMA graduates the brainiest in the country struggling hard to set up a living...and their luv....strange to imagine n believe too....my perception about the IIT ians n IIMs may be strange as they are like aliens to the world....merely dipped into the books not much aware of the external world....ive changed my opinion not wholly but to n extent.. some of them may be as any other student njoys lyf in college never mind they r in a premiere institute..

any how i wanted to complete that one as i have got something this weekend in my hand which i wanted to read .... while having my breakfast my dad just commented on a paper ad on a couple getting married yesterday.... a mallu girl marrying an American guy... i was comparing the 2 states with the ad which can be titled as 2 countries...strange..i was thinking its all about the peoples mind n views about the culture people n traditions n more over their approach towards life is wat making them to decide on such social pressured issues... especially Marriage.....

Marrying a person from the community for the sake of parents n relatives or marrying a person whom we feel compatible with..which one is better????? i cant get into a conclusion as its like two sides of a coin...which rarely stands still...

every one in this world whether he is American, Indian, British or Pakistani.....is all individuals who have the same kinda feelings and emotions............rather have a barrier on caste religion states or countries....

India the second largest populated country trying hard to acquire the first position will be the only country separated within the country in states religion n castes...with difference in traditions cultures and values......

It all depends upon the individuals attitude towards the social n personal commitments pressures and relationships which gets the prominence in their life...According to which they build up their status, living,relationships and happiness....

Its all the Family which moulds the generations values n culture which they feel they need to carried thru.....

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

പ്രണയം ഇന്നെന്‍റെ സ്വപ്നത്തില്‍ ......

പ്രണയം ഇന്നെന്‍റെ സ്വപ്നത്തില്‍ ........

ഉറക്കത്തിന്‍റെയും ഉണര്‍വിന്‍റെയും അതിര്‍വരമ്പില്‍
മെല്ലെ നടക്കുമ്പോള്‍
കുളിര്‍ക്കാറ്റു മെല്ലെ തലോടുന്നുണ്ടായിരുന്നു ,
ഇലകളുടെ മര്‍മരം ആശംസകളയക്കുന്നു ,

കിളികള്‍ പരസ്പരം പറയുന്നുണ്ടായിരുന്നു...

പ്രണയിനിയുടെ കൈ പിടിച്ചു യാത്ര ചെയ്യുന്നവനെ
പുലര്‍്ചയിലെക്കു കൊണ്ടുപോകരുതെയെന്നു,

ദൈവവും , പ്രകൃതിയും കനിഞ്ഞു
പക്ഷേ സമയം അതിന്‍റെ മുഴുവന്‍ ക്രൂരതയും കാട്ടി,
പറഞ്ഞു ഉറപ്പിച്ചതു പോലെ എഴാം മണിക്കൂറില്‍ അലറിയെത്തി.........

ഞാന്‍ എന്‍റെ ജീവിതത്തിലേക്കു മടങ്ങി....

Sunday, December 20, 2009

sunday................a hectic day.....

weekend to be relaxed??????????????

obviously YES,but how many of us get time to sit back at home,relaxed totally free from all the work pressures or from hectic academic schedules, tuitions....hardly a week in a quarter, rest will be engaged with family functions get-togethers etc etc...life pattern is changing no it has changed mainly from a joint family to a nuclear one which make the people busy on sundays being with the family relatives or friends to make a living moment all set back with the fonding memories....this is how people nowadays plan or forced for a sunday;or else for a movie(entertaining????????????hardly one or two in a year.....)for a change......or else to a park or to beach or restaurants... need to run n bid for a bit of space...even then they run...........a place to feel the warmth......polluted in all the ways, as the entire society has changed their lifestyles.......

latest trend to be in malls where we cud only see hi-fi brands with _99 price tags(99,199,299.....)just to make pockets empty or to wipe of with the credit cards or killing cards(not sure how much it is i guess around 36% interest annually if fails).how can a middleclass or even upper middle class salaried man can afford??????even then people are ready to spend a fair amount from their income just to be happy(pretending!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!need to think)may be trying.............

adopting the life styles............trying to be sophisticated,never hastened to do nothing;life has turned to this extend running behind the bizy outskirts of technology fashion n the billionnaires fake portraits of lyf tuned to business!!!!!!!how well the people are changed or(fooled???)how long it gonna withstand or where it is gonna end...Lets see!!!!!!!!

thus the relaxing day tuned to be the most hectic day in the week.........wat a strategy!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Memories.................till the date............


Memories...............
back to my college days..........always being a lastbencher in college with my four best friends drishya my partner in all crimes...........jemshi zumi n shamna..........babbling in between the class...gossiping...........in between the fun my hands used to be engaged in the first pages of the notebooks with ma favorite 0.7mm lead pencil..............but we however manage to answer the unexpected questions from the one who shouts with the topics to get our attention especially with us(now i know how hard is it to lecture a hour n how it irritates the one when the students babble....)
this one also came like a flowing river in between our English lecture(exactly don't remember... no it wont be in my second language classes as i rather sits there..............)
with the technicalities n the struggle for existence in mind.............the complexities in life its we the people(forefathers) made it complex for us.....creating all the possible barriers between two hearts.............n now it changed as the social pressure n continues generations to generations from the evolution to the civilizations and on n on.......................
may be the tension i had in those days about my future n my career made be draw this...............if it was something cool in ma mind then this wud not be like this with a hell of line rather than curves..........
but i feel cool now as im in ma way which i dreamt, may be coz of the tensions n insecurity i felt that day turned me to wat im today...........atleast in ma career...
past thoughts is wat a person today.......................

Thursday, December 17, 2009

I'll miss u..................

well...whole day i was really excited by the good comments suggestions and criticisms i got frm my frnds....................happy go day today......but ma mind was searching for something to scribble down eventhough i was engaged with ma work.........................nothing strucked thru....
while talking to ma new frnd i said "im thinking for a topic to write today"....ma new frnd he said "i'll sugget u a topic" n quoted "fancy vs reality"..................... good one to comment on!!!! by then i started framing a structure to make it out sensible...sorry my dear frnd a phn call changed ma mind completely....................i lost myself completely......finding it really hard to face the reality...............
the value of time is wat haunted me then.....the value of n hour..............it really changed ma mood n ma thoughts........how it can change a decision................... spoil a life....im facing the reality now...................human mind and thoughts go beyond barriers.....it behaves strange.....cant predict even the consequences...............a hour is much more for a brave decision but the so called "pressures, commitments, fear".......whatever.................made everything lost..............

sorry my frnd 4 not coming to ur quote......................
sorry my dear frnd for my silence for u.......i thought for the best but.................if i cud be with u then. ill have u today with me................
the value i had to pay for the TIME n so called "................" is u my dear friend.................
I'll miss u ever.............

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

im back exactly after a year.........strange but its the fact!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its been more than a year exactly on 6th dec 2008 i posted ma last post.... more than a year i cant believe for such a long time i dint write anything or nothing came to me thru ma pencil sketches........... which often helps me for a hide out???? a whole year.....isnt there anything which kept me sad....desperate....happy ......or is that something much big happened which completely thrown me out of the world.....may be...anyways past is past........days and years are running like anything...........strange.........but its the fact....time is running!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after all ups and downs atlast i start blogging back today 16th dec 2009..............starting as a new individual??????? no never.......its the same me.....but with a difference in attitude n perception ...that time i was a student purely into academics......now also im.......not in big universities mugging up the jargons which cracks the mind,but learning the basics of reality in lyf.....successfully completed my masters in management........employed........... not well but settled in my means.............with lots of hopes dreams and ambitions aiming high to achieve more from this start...................

on the way to my destination how can i leave ma passions...........which holds me..........to be in my inner self im back................

back in action...........