tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76680312302646022862024-03-14T08:00:16.488+05:30Thoughts dreams and memories..............would say an Eventful 'I',
to script abt myself here, it wont make even a quarter of me explored,
For YOU,U may feel a 'U' in me, ur dear ones or even ur enemies in me.The way u see me is wat makes me to u.
"be the 'I', better than to change for anyone"
'I',not that im selfish;Its U in person make the I for u.
'coz i need to script the 'I' to be unique and to be framed as 'I' the identity of my soul ever!asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.comBlogger38125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-22292037416128814212014-11-15T07:45:00.000+05:302014-11-15T07:45:18.232+05:30Bday wishes to the most beautiful n sincere person I have met.......................<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
To the person who have seen me growing from a teen to a woman...<br />
To the person who have been with me in spite of my ignorance...<br />
To the person who have taught me the real spirituality...<br />
To the person who have asked me to live my mind n heart....<br />
To the person who have read my mind perfectly..............<br />
To the person who have been with me as a good companion all these years....<br />
To the person who have been there with full heart whenever i was in need.........<br />
To the person who have never intruded to my comfort zones......<br />
To the person whom i can depend upon at any time...<br />
To the person who have always looked for my happiness...<br />
To the person who always pray for my good health...<br />
To the person who have never been angry to me...<br />
To the person who have never fought with me..............<br />
To the person who have understood the real me....<br />
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You came to my life like a gentle breeze...<br />
You are one of the best thing happened in my life...<br />
You have influenced me a lot with ur nature n thoughts....<br />
You have showed me the meaning of unconditional love n friendship...<br />
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I would say that im lucky that i know you n having you as my best friend....<br />
And Thank u for understanding me, knowing me n supporting me...<br />
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I wish you all the happiness in your life....<br />
I wish you all the goodness in your life....<br />
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-size: x-large;"><i>Happy Birthday my dear friend......</i></span><br />
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asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-62101620130063624012014-11-07T15:52:00.001+05:302014-11-07T15:52:55.310+05:30I feel ashamed of myself...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Today morning not as any other day it started...woke up brushed n had a cup of water n then I was going through the newspaper.... Which was not a part of my routine from last two years...when I looked back I really felt bad about myself that I have stopped reading newspaper...</div>
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From my teens I was very particular that I go through the paper in the morning and a half n hour news update in the television... But this habit of mine has dropped out of my routine completely from last two years...I can blame n find excuses on my job timings n other engagements but I can't justify those truly to myself...</div>
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Now i have all the newspaper apps in my mobile n i do get the daily updates n i used to go through the news too...But im not aware of anything in detail nowadays i do have a glance at the news but wont spend time to read the full content....nor spend time to watch a full news coverage which really feels me like a dumb....</div>
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I realized that i have missed out something essential in life by my way...But i am back...ready to know n analyze the outer world....When you find something you need to change n you try hard to achieve that...It will really mould you to a better person day by day...</div>
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asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-67895647058567221932014-10-30T13:56:00.001+05:302014-10-30T13:56:35.184+05:30The best gift u can give to your loved ones...................<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Time....<br />
Which can never be retained nor taken back....once lost is ever lost...<br />
Is the best thing u can give to ur loved ones....<br />
Its just not only for your special occasions but to maintain a good healthy relation ..<br />
Its just ur time is valued more...<br />
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the use of mobile phones and internet is really helping to keep up good quality time with friends n family though virtually....<br />
But though having its own pros n cons they pay way to build up unhealthy relations too...<br />
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Nowadays the family interact with each other when both powers are shut n internet n phn is down...<br />
Or else during long drives......<br />
Even though they spend hours together in same house they rarely spent time together...<br />
Even a days single dine together or at least during weekends if your job demands........<br />
When you enjoy being in a house together turns to be a Home!!!<br />
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More than the materialistic gifts the time spent together will be remembered forever....The days we spent together enjoy together will remain in our hearts as the memories cherished forever....<br />
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Time....<br />
Remains the best gift you can give to your loved ones...<br />
Life is too short...enjoy each moment with your family friends and dear ones....<br />
Live the life or else you have to regret on your lost life...Your Lost time!!!!!<br />
Enjoy n Value your time!!!!<br />
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asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-25878581837256998702014-10-29T11:51:00.000+05:302014-10-29T11:51:13.168+05:30I had a dream.....<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I had a dream...<br />
the dream in which i've lived my life<br />
the dream in which i've been loved the way i wanted to be<br />
the dream which dressed me like a princess<br />
the dream in which i felt i'm safe<br />
the dream in which i was a queen...<br />
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The dawn of the day slipped from my hand<br />
I was dropped into the beautiful world of a dream...<br />
I thought it was real coz i felt i was living<br />
I was mesmerized by the way i was treated<br />
I felt like im living my dream for years...<br />
n i do...<br />
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I dint realize the warmth i felt was the comfort of my blanket<br />
I dint realize the throne i felt was the coziness of my bed...<br />
I dint realize the happiness i felt was the comfort of my room..<br />
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The morning wake up call was an alarm<br />
which alarmed me to be back to reality<br />
When i woke up everything was just as usual<br />
the way it has been the last night<br />
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It took few seconds for me to realize<br />
that i was fooled by myself by a dream...<br />
But even then i cherished my dream...<br />
coz i felt i have lived my dream at least in my dreams<br />
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And the reality to achieve my dream<br />
will always be a dream....<br />
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asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-82608592965026918452014-10-28T13:51:00.002+05:302014-10-28T14:47:41.052+05:30sybaritic soceity..............<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Childhood today is technologically bounded....Kids do not want to play outdoor...they prefer indoor playstations videogames (though outdated) computer games n most updated mobile games i pads n tablets...even the newborn eyes on that....the techie brainies day by day updating the games n apps which addicts the kids n youngsters n now the older ones too..Its all coz of the user friendliness and easy accessibility which made popular the diaspora of internet and technological advancement....<br />
When asked for outdoor games the younger generations are lamented for their physical exertions rather been interested to get the feel psychologically and mentally....the brain functionaries are fine tuned to the radiations which will really create the way for mental block and other educational disorders....lack of concentration and visualizing ability and the most importantly the bliss of imagination reading the books are in the verge of extinction...every data is on your finger tips even the basic necessities need not be memorized...so friendly...the life seems to b too easy...is that true????<br />
no never its just the hallucination that you are indulged in .....<br />
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earlier it was the clean oxygenated nature,then became chemically polluted and now turned to a chemically polluted radiation chamber...yep the new definition can be imprinted to our mother earth....yes we live in the polluted world with chemicals n radiations....n the victims yes the human race who are the real culprits and the innocent animals and plants....they too have the same rights as we does to live their life...n we cage them showcase them to more money and technology...<br />
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its my dream that the nature be restored to its purest form or else we have to regret for the death of a wonder called life....</div>
asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-69910299392544594362012-05-14T10:39:00.000+05:302012-05-14T19:38:43.122+05:30First sight...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<i>It was a happy week then, ma parents celebrating their 25th wedding
anniversary, me n ma sister were hosting the show at home...relatives all
around, his proposal came in a serious note.I was not at all serious then as any other proposal i wen it thru,even after they said they r coming to see me...it has to cover hell of obstacles both of ma family n of myself like family job education n moreover the main villain the horoscope...</i><br />
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<i>It was on Sunday May 16th,2010 the akshaythritheeya day (the day i pierced ma ears for a secondstud which marked the remembrance day for a lyf tym)he came to see me with his uncle n aunt in redcolour santro.I saw him thru ma window while he was getting down from the car f.I was ready with a salwarkameez attire it was a normal routine 4 me, someone coming to see me ,myself behind ma dad letting me questioned,and of a nervous personal talk session usually starting with job education interests etc etc n to b frank my strategy was to dominate the show whom i wanted to get eliminated off...here it was really a normal kind of a interview session no an argument btwn a mrkting professional n a hr professional...but the main shock or surprise was for my sister as his aunt who accompanied him was working in her college.....</i><br />
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<i>My cousin who was there at home that day, asked my opinion abt the guyn i said,"we physically match n i thing the family too but i dont think so it will happen"he asked me why n i said i'm not all serious abt marriage it is not at all a priority for me now...but he said firmly that this will be the knot for me n he won the bet... </i><br />
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<i>Even though i dint tuk it seriously hn it was the day officially we met each other for the first time...</i></div>
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More than a year exactly but i have been scanning thru my words quite number of times....why dint i post anything then???? the finger points towads me n i am bound to answer too...</div>
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It was the year, i had gone thru the transition phase in my life..</div>
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upgraded to a wife to a loveliest man ..daughter in law no daughter for ma loving parents n sister in law, again sister for the cutest girl in this world.. </div>
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I donno how i have gone thru the changes,drastic realistic changes from the world of fantasy to the world of reality n responibility!!responsibilty of a new family heading to ma shoulders...</div>
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The day since i have finished my pg my parents have started searching for a suitable groom.(am i in the arms of the best suitable man???)registered the in many matrimonials both online n offline, i have been forced to be infront of a quite number of parents n bachelors....(cant remember the exact no of tea cup n cashew nut packs...hehehhe)</div>
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Funny moments...n those days were the most confusing days of ma lyf to take a decision on ma future ma lyf ma lyf partner.the most important decision in anybodys lyf...left to me .. i was scared confused to ratify ma decison,which was totally laid to ma word.i donno how were the days dragging with ma thought process hope n expectations clubbed together...really had a bad tym then...with the facts n realities in front to compromise to adjust on ma views visions etc etc...at last i had to say ma word to him....to hari ma husband!!!!!!!!!!</div>
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Now i am happily married moved initially to trichy n now temporarily in chennai....One n half yrs of married lyf was a kind of hibernation period not for me as whole but for ma thoughts...there were many times i badly wanted to pen down or sketch my thoughts but i couldnt for any reason...</div>
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I was in a wrong assumption that i can write or sketch only when i am depressed or sad...but now i realised that i can when i am happy too...for the first time now i am writing wen i am relaxed...totally relaxed from all ma tensions...n u can feel it in ma words too..</div>
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Yes i am back..back again with a new attitude n new visions n insights in ma lyf....</div>
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</div></div>asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-6201975478993242602010-06-02T13:07:00.002+05:302010-06-02T13:09:09.612+05:30The Moment....Each moment when you go deep inside you<br />
You look into something<br />
which keeps u cool and happy<br />
There we reel up to the past <br />
The Moment.. <br />
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Each day gives you the happenings, The Time<br />
which you are bound to live.<br />
The next day it turns to be the memories<br />
The Past....<br />
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Some moments strucks in you<br />
which u never want to leave alike<br />
u will take it through your life with you<br />
The Memories...<br />
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The happiness that u had<br />
will never come to u again<br />
when it is lost from you ever<br />
you hold it up with<br />
The Fate..<br />
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The future is to be foreseen;<br />
Anytime every time when plunged to darkness<br />
The thrust u show, ur strength is your hope,<br />
The Future...<br />
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Sitting alone in a seashore looking away to the ocean<br />
Its your insight take U to the other end<br />
with a hope to touch your sight the other end.<br />
The Hope...<br />
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The reality lies here;<br />
the moment with your Past, your Memories which turned up to your Fate<br />
Looking forward to your future, to your hope<br />
You live today<br />
And you Plan your Next Day;<br />
The Present....asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-48473501199804765072010-05-28T12:53:00.002+05:302010-05-28T17:15:18.456+05:30This song is too close to my heart.............The loneliness of nights alone<br />the search for strength to carry on<br />my every hope has seemed to die<br />my eyes had no more tears to cry<br />then like the sun shining up above<br />you surrounded me with your endless love<br />Coz all the things I couldn't see are now so clear to me<br /><br /><br />You are my everything<br />Nothing your love won't bring<br />My life is yours alone<br />The only love I've ever known<br />Your spirit pulls me through<br />When nothing else will do<br />Every night I pray<br />On bended knee<br />That you will always be <br />My everything<br /><br />Now all my hopes and all my dreams<br />are suddenly reality<br />you've opened up my heart to feel<br />a kind of love that's truly real<br />a guiding light that'll never fade<br />there's not a thing in life that I would ever trade<br />for the love you give it won't let go<br />I hope you'll always know<br /><br />You are my everything<br />Nothing your love won't bring <br />My life is yours alone<br />The only love I've ever known<br />Your spirit pulls me through<br />When nothing else will do<br />Every night I pray<br />On bended knee<br />That you will always be<br />My everything<br /><br />You're the breath of life in me<br />the only one that sets me free<br />and you have made my soul complete<br />for all time<br /><br />You are my everything<br />Nothing your love won't bring<br />My life is yours alone<br />The only love I've ever known <br />Your spirit pulls me through<br />When nothing else will do <br />Every night I pray <br />On bended knee<br />That you will always be<br />be my everything <br /><br /> Every night I pray<br />down on bended knee<br />that you will always be<br />my everything<br />oh my everythingasthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-19843171977768054382010-04-23T17:21:00.003+05:302010-05-12T14:01:36.467+05:30Nothing more to say ..I am lost..I had my slumber time....being with my dreams a day off to them....quite a long 6 hours sleep it made me fresh than a short 9 hour sleep.....had sumptuous dine with my dears....at times i feel a second takes a decade to pass n a year in a second...<br /><br />How do i feel that....<br /><br />its coz only that we think of time which takes its own time to leave...complicated????? yes it is..<br /><br />its all mind power n calculations that twe calculate in ourselves...<br /><br />Its all happening only coz we live with the past, foreseeing the future, leaving to live the present....<br /><br />sleepless nights with emotions n spareless days with truck loads of people around....<br /><br />I am lost in between.......i cant sketch out the real me out......<br /><br />as everyone around, me too moving ahead with the face which everyone wants out with me....<br /><br />am i totally lost????<br />No but need to fetch out the time to be ME....<br />To be the gal in me which I like the most...asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-461816616894425172010-04-01T10:37:00.001+05:302010-04-01T10:38:40.755+05:30a cell.................from here a life begins..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_XkUN4aAWN3w/S7QqTV4E2LI/AAAAAAAAADU/fh5hVt89GSg/s1600/20.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 221px; height: 320px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_XkUN4aAWN3w/S7QqTV4E2LI/AAAAAAAAADU/fh5hVt89GSg/s320/20.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5455031560430737586" border="0" 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href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_XkUN4aAWN3w/S7McLcY6jRI/AAAAAAAAAC8/ynJEhzwdp1s/s1600/IMG_0002.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 230px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_XkUN4aAWN3w/S7McLcY6jRI/AAAAAAAAAC8/ynJEhzwdp1s/s320/IMG_0002.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5454734556600634642" border="0" /></a>asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-38369999737528948292010-03-12T10:58:00.002+05:302010-03-12T11:11:39.471+05:30The divinity...My hope..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_XkUN4aAWN3w/S5nRU4hEmzI/AAAAAAAAAC0/UTHFacGpXcQ/s1600-h/IMG_0001.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 231px; height: 320px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_XkUN4aAWN3w/S5nRU4hEmzI/AAAAAAAAAC0/UTHFacGpXcQ/s320/IMG_0001.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5447615380980013874" border="0" /></a><br />The divinity....<br />The route of hope...<br />Is wat it symbolizes...<br /><br />For wat have been it created upto...<br />By humans, the myths which we r revolved..<br />In which the human life holds on..<br /><br />This is the symbol of hope<br />sanctity...<br />Relaxation to mind soul n body<br />is wat it means to us..<br />This is where we rest us...<br /><br />this is where we choose to guide us...<br />the way we feel needs to get moved...<br />here we get the consent for our mind...<br />for our deeds..<br />We believe here is from we get the life..<br />we get the living...<br />we try to believe this is the soul in us...<br /><br />is that the fact???<br />dont wanna be a controversial.....<br />i believe its from the thought process in our unconscious mind make us...<br />still we need to lay on someone...<br />Yes it is.....The soul behind our soul....<br />The spirit....<br />This is how i wish to see the spirit ,the soul in me...asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-76544809683132314612010-02-12T11:37:00.005+05:302010-02-14T09:11:56.640+05:30Epilogue to chapter '24When my sister called me to wish my bday....<br />all her gal gang asked for my bday treat....<br />i asked them all to come home the weekend<br />so cud ccelebrate the other day together...<br />sometime later they called me up n said<br />10 of them,they are coming home..<br />i was really thrilled...<br />after my 18th bday, im gonna celebrate with loads of people around...<br />was sitting in office thinking how to plan the day....<br />the menus in dine...etc....etc..<br /><br />Feb 6th ,8.00 PM...<br /><br />Saturday evening....8 gals with my sister....<br />they came....(anju,aru,achu,kingul,gayu,shahida,sajna and appu my sister....)<br />was really excited to c them all.....<br />they are my cute little sisters...more than that they are my friends...<br />sharing a common wavelength....<br />we had a blast together then...<br /><br />Feb 7th...The Day...<br /><br />sunday after delicious sadya....A nonveg sadya for them....<br />we went to calicut.....<br />focuz mall the destination...<br />went thru all the brands....<br />then to pizza corner ......<br />atlast to burst out we went to beach..<br /><br />the vision ..the sun going deep into the ocean....<br />leaving behind darkness to my eyes atleast for a while..<br />to give the hope of a new morn.....<br />to the other corner of the world...<br />where i need to reach in my sight....<br />to be the dawn ...<br />for the life...<br /><br />i realize the day gonna end..<br />few more hours can be with my sisters..<br />they gave me another memorable day...<br />then again back to my routine...<br />this is life.... nothing stand still.............<br />especially the happiness...<br />to be happy...keep the fonding memories still....<br />atleast u can be happy at heart....<br /><br />My bday'2010....walked away....<br />leaving me good moments to cherish in life....<br />Here is my epilogue......<br />"<em>completed Chapter '24...."</em><br />N there starts the script of my next chapter.....<br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><em>The prologue......</em></span>asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-24703838605610651762010-02-11T10:43:00.004+05:302010-02-11T11:29:03.949+05:30Thank u my friends for making my day so special...<span style="font-style: italic;">memorable week it was ....<br />can call it as my bday week....<br />Feb 3rd was the day i completed 24 years of my journey to death....<br />n according to mallu calender it was on Feb 7th...<br />anyways 365 days shortened to be a free bird...<br /><br />even though that is the reality it was fun enjoying 'the day...<br />with gifts n wishes from my dears....<br /><br />Feb 3rd...<br /><br />12.00am<br />started my phone ringing n i was in my deepest dreamz<br />picked up the call....my frnd from pune<br />wished me happy bday...<br />dont remember exactly how much did i attended...half n hour or more<br />then i went back to my dreams....which i wanna finish it out by 6 am...<br /><br />woke up at 6 am ...<br />went to temple....as usual on every bdays...<br />came to office then with amma made payasam cakes n choclates<br />it was then a bash<br />spreading all over my face full of sweetness 'externally..<br />the day splashed out..<br />in between wishes flowing to me technically.....<br />from my frnds deep rooted.....<br /><br />the day went by without making my day so special by my most awaited moment....<br />even then it was a memoroble day of the bdays ive celebrated in a way around......<br />thank u my dear frnds<br />for making the day....<br />one of the most memorable bday....till date....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></span>asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-39973420132792487822010-01-28T12:04:00.007+05:302010-01-29T09:38:55.646+05:30I had a dream......A fine morning sitting in my balcony..<br />hands crossed<br />looking far i can see boys playing<br />i had a book in my lap<br />Love story by Enrich segal<br />I was completely in it<br />to fell into the emotion of oliver<br />how to miss his love jenny....<br /><br />'i was in a world of love n happiness around then<br />i was filming the life...<br />going through the last frame<br />fighting for life..<br />i can feel the struggle to breathe<br />crossed my hands with him bidding good bye forever<br />promising to be together next life.<br /><br />i can see how hard he finds to control his tears<br />trying to keep a smile to my eyes last sight...<br />all emotions pressed to his thighs......<br /><br />i can feel my eyes getting closed<br />without fulfilling my life<br />my dreams...<br />where am i going............<br />i am holding his hands, but why??? he is not looking at me...<br /><br />i startled as my ears strucked with his voice calling me,<br />crying loud holding my frozen hands...<br /><br />when i opened my eyes i was in my bed<br />my eyes are wet....how??<br />i was thinking what was happening!!!<br />i was in a hospital bed???but then<br />how come i ...<br />i was confused..<br /><br />it takes a second 4 me to realize<br />that..<br />It was a Dream....asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-69524849235219955682010-01-25T11:01:00.003+05:302010-01-25T16:45:09.633+05:30Scripting my life.....How many years do I live???<br />No idea...<br />i guess its all a matter of second; but when???<br />the creator knows....<br />until then I live.....<br /><br />Completed 23 chapters of ma autobiography....<br />experienced not written...<br />the verity of life.........<br />scripting the last few lines of 24th chapter......<br />looking back..............<br /><br />What have I learned???<br />experienced???<br />what life has taught me until???<br />can I say???<br />No......<br /><br />The state of realization...........<br />may be in my next phase of my growing..<br />facile thoughts but to pick the one 4 me...<br />I cant...<br />why????<br /><br />my eyes closed??<br />my mouth shut??<br />nor my ears dropped??<br />or am i waiting still??<br />a vermin in zillions waiting for!!!!<br /><br />who am i?<br />what am i?<br />where am i?<br />shedding days...........<br /><br />'for the world im a vermin..<br />n for me I am the world.....'<br /><br />this is how i gonna end my 24th chapter...<br />to start with something new...<br />im ready, waiting for the day.....asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-32864781308731712932010-01-22T12:33:00.002+05:302010-01-22T13:05:37.065+05:30The Day....Thinking about THE DAY.....<br />the day we never want to forget....<br />the day that changed our life... may be bdays, anniversaries anything it depends.....<br />the day becomes a happy day when it can be cherished still...<br />waiting for the day to celebrate,<br />fabulous to think about ....partying, meeting plans ahead a month...<br />else????<br />the day' will wipe our tears............asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-55701344915605065362010-01-14T16:33:00.002+05:302010-01-14T17:20:13.048+05:30waiting for the dawn....the memories haunting like anything when i hate to look back<br />its not because its horrible or a hell....<br />it was the days i lived my fullest....<br /><br />i had my life drawn like a fairy tale....<br />everything by my side,my passions my dreams<br />with my loved ones..<br />days full of joy n excitement....<br />the reality....<br /><br />my hopes my dreams dashed off in a moment<br />time daubed darkness into me<br />which i need to wipe it off<br /><br />thinking of future really daunts,<br />may be brighter than before not sure...<br />still can hope....n dream up to the sky<br />for??<br />to fall to the troughs deep....<br /><br />totally negative???<br />yes i am....<br />why??u may ask...<br />i have my reasons...<br />de trop thoughts, not really....<br />but my past...<br />who hold my hands n left me in an island.....<br /><br />blank around waves strucking....<br />struggling for existence.....<br />still needs to wait for the shoulders????<br />the future???<br /><br />Yes need to....<br />to live.....<br /><br />so am I.....<br />my eyes closed.....<br />without the reach of light,<br />waiting for the dawn.......asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-12589635328501796862010-01-11T11:21:00.005+05:302010-01-11T15:26:05.159+05:30My school days.......more than a decade screwed up.....when i was talking to my senior in school he said he is scripting his memories from school days....made it to a 200 plus script.....i was really amazed as when i think about my school days i do have memories both good n bad.......but can i script it to a book??? nothing much to write a book....n Never...it wont be an interesting stuff to the readers as i dint had that much of excitement in my school days.....even in my plus two days i dint had....a bit no a sea of sorrows n tears shed.. that's the only memories i have 4 those days which i never want to open up in my life...<br /><br />the immaturity in handling situations made it so worse that i cud never make my time positive...the teenz hit badly held in so called "prison" school boarding n to college hostel as plus two students with loads of restrictions even to talk with parents..<br /><br />but the only thing i do remember is the bunch of 4 good friends which i had then...still they are the ones who r close to me.....ive read somewhere that the people around u when u cry will be there with u till death....now turned up to different arena in lyf still we do share the emotions...............thats my friends....<br /><br />to confess i have to a lot...my thoughts ruined me, screwed me up the words spoken do harm me sometimes... i donno whether each individual thinks as such in any moment of their lyf..but i do a lot may be coz of my frustrations to lyf always wanna hide out???? still unanswered by my mind...even when i look into my soul through my eyes i can see the insecurity more than i feel or may be my inner mind do fell the same constraints...whom shud i blame???? no one else except me...........there it will have to end up.....<br /><br />that is wat my school days were.....from this scene how can i make an exciting memories in scripts????????? but still we had some good memories in our room viola to be shared but not exctensivily a volume...... sunday blasts with food......giving the yummy biriyani fragrance to all other hostelites....the make over sessions n late night talks.....blabbering about anything under the sun.....more fun now when we luk back is how we create reasons to go home on weekends with silly but critical bedridden reasons of dear ones by giving the name list to hostel warden to remember in their daily prayers n on their service.....<br /><br />the two years felt like two decades then, has taught me lot about the society n people around how selfish they are n how helpful they are...the two extremities,how the people change and how people stick on to their values......<br /><br />this made me to beware of my environment....n a great lesson " be a good friend to urself no one else giv u a good companion other than u"....still i say im lucky that ive friends,some good friends...n very few best friends....asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-27945035161990670542009-12-31T09:27:00.004+05:302009-12-31T11:07:57.659+05:30How do I welcome 2010?????????????Whole world is awaiting for the new year with new hopes n dreams......with crackers and fancy lights around the streets....n with stars being a late fantasy for a week....is it a happy day today..yea definitely...for me today is my ammas bday....as we celebrate the new year eve together with her bday blast.....<br /><br />im one more year ahead with experience.....but one year short to death....nd is evident in all our new year n bday celebrations.....even though it is a fact we try to ignore it as we human beings try hard to find an occasion to be themselves happy....<br /><br />getting new year cards was most exciting thing couple of years back n i too had spend a huge amount buying cards...but now no one sends a card(post man will be the happiest man for this change...) the only cards we get these days is from the business entities as part of their strategies to maintain their customer relationship...n its dumped not even bothered to open it up if the post cover has their logo....but the tech savvy minds sends forwards n e cards with new ideas n innovative captions which we feel excited sometimes..even that too has changed to just a forwarded mail....this is our new year celebration....the youth in metros go for discos. In our Gods own country..the so called hi-fi's do make it out...some of them do have a family get together or else go out for a dine........rest of the community sits in front of TV with virtual celebrations..not even dared to wish the one sitting next to us.....<br /><br />As any other day January 1st comes and goes some of them do have a holiday others will be there at work...and the days pass...for that we celebrate?? NO its only bcoz people are grabbing each opportunity to be themselves happy n to be social in between their busy schedules.....<br /><br />no one gets time to look even the pre set reminders in their latest gadgets,so do they cant wish their dear ones n friends for their bdays or anniversaries..so this common day helps us to be social which will not be compromised with a sake of some forwarded mails or msgs sent it to the group....<br /><br />This is for the New year Eve..........Yet again a business strategy minding the relationships in this marathon running life.........do we mind the one who r suffering for a drop or water or a shelter....No they are still suffering with their so called hopes for the new year, may be waiting for their horoscopical change soon not in the new year anytime this year.....or for a new thought for them from the government or from the judiciary.............<br /><br />With a week long(hardly tries) tuff new year resolutions, fwd-ed messages in my inbox to be fwd-ed to more n with technically updated mails me too is waiting for a wonderful year 2010........ for a new year eve...asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-23257437500704915372009-12-30T09:38:00.006+05:302009-12-30T14:58:38.970+05:302 states To 2 countries within 2 individuals....yesterday was really a boring day....Harthal has been declared...working at home i was not pretty much satisfied as its the only rare occasion at home we get mom n dad together with no much hectic schedules other than phone calls for dad....i was like amidst of work reading and many more things in chart also wanted to test some of my culinary skills....but nothing happened as i was assigned some important work which i need to complete the day itself and i wanted to complete '2 states' by chetan bagat which i started the last day ....<br /><br />i was much interested in the beginning reading the book as the couple struggles to make their love end up in marriage with both the parents side smiling..the Punjabi's n Tamils get together for their children s wish.... IIMA graduates the brainiest in the country struggling hard to set up a living...and their luv....strange to imagine n believe too....my perception about the IIT ians n IIMs may be strange as they are like aliens to the world....merely dipped into the books not much aware of the external world....ive changed my opinion not wholly but to n extent.. some of them may be as any other student njoys lyf in college never mind they r in a premiere institute..<br /><br />any how i wanted to complete that one as i have got something this weekend in my hand which i wanted to read .... while having my breakfast my dad just commented on a paper ad on a couple getting married yesterday.... a mallu girl marrying an American guy... i was comparing the 2 states with the ad which can be titled as 2 countries...strange..i was thinking its all about the peoples mind n views about the culture people n traditions n more over their approach towards life is wat making them to decide on such social pressured issues... especially Marriage.....<br /><br />Marrying a person from the community for the sake of parents n relatives or marrying a person whom we feel compatible with..which one is better????? i cant get into a conclusion as its like two sides of a coin...which rarely stands still...<br /><br />every one in this world whether he is American, Indian, British or Pakistani.....is all individuals who have the same kinda feelings and emotions............rather have a barrier on caste religion states or countries....<br /><br />India the second largest populated country trying hard to acquire the first position will be the only country separated within the country in states religion n castes...with difference in traditions cultures and values......<br /><br />It all depends upon the individuals attitude towards the social n personal commitments pressures and relationships which gets the prominence in their life...According to which they build up their status, living,relationships and happiness....<br /><br />Its all the Family which moulds the generations values n culture which they feel they need to carried thru.....asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7668031230264602286.post-52990415241199007882009-12-22T07:48:00.005+05:302009-12-22T08:36:41.894+05:30പ്രണയം ഇന്നെന്റെ സ്വപ്നത്തില് ......പ്രണയം ഇന്നെന്റെ സ്വപ്നത്തില് ........<br /><br />ഉറക്കത്തിന്റെയും ഉണര്വിന്റെയും അതിര്വരമ്പില്<br />മെല്ലെ നടക്കുമ്പോള്<br />കുളിര്ക്കാറ്റു മെല്ലെ തലോടുന്നുണ്ടായിരുന്നു ,<br />ഇലകളുടെ മര്മരം ആശംസകളയക്കുന്നു ,<br /><br />കിളികള് പരസ്പരം പറയുന്നുണ്ടായിരുന്നു...<br /><br />പ്രണയിനിയുടെ കൈ പിടിച്ചു യാത്ര ചെയ്യുന്നവനെ<br />പുലര്്ചയിലെക്കു കൊണ്ടുപോകരുതെയെന്നു,<br /><br />ദൈവവും , പ്രകൃതിയും കനിഞ്ഞു<br />പക്ഷേ <span class="">സമയം അതിന്റെ </span> മുഴുവന് ക്രൂരതയും കാട്ടി,<br />പറഞ്ഞു ഉറപ്പിച്ചതു പോലെ എഴാം മണിക്കൂറില് അലറിയെത്തി.........<br /><br />ഞാന് എന്റെ ജീവിതത്തിലേക്കു മടങ്ങി....asthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15404003160800748977noreply@blogger.com2